Spasms and Flashes

Date: April 7, 2025

That evening, I used binaural beats. The session lasted 42 minutes, and although I didn’t feel like I actually exited, a lot happened.

I experienced several physical spasms during the session, notably in my legs and arms, as if my body were reacting to an attempt to disconnect. I also felt tingling and energy in my fingers.

Hypnagogic images started to appear—fleeting and rapid. Faces, shapes, lights. Nothing very stable, but they came in a series.

No vibrations, no internal sounds this time. I was probably too alert, too focused. In hindsight, I think I was waiting too much for it to “start,” which kept me in a mental observation mode instead of letting myself slip into the experience.

It was a useful experience. I saw that my body reacts and my awareness is becoming steadier. I’m probably missing a moment of trust, or a way to let go without monitoring every sensation. But I feel I’m getting closer.